"That one day, you/ll see that a hero lies in you"
Listening to Mayday Parade songs again...You're dead wrong and Terrible things. Both bring so much memories, the former describes how i feel exactly...what used to be a plain of life now stands a bed a black roses. Been trading places with the ghost in me, till im pretty sick. 'She's got all my dreams,all i have are these broken things'. Hah~ walked through the rain again just now~ Didn't realize is was raining till i was half drenched -.-but at least now i feel much lighter and free. Going for a weekend escape, not to anywhere extravagant. Have things to do to take my mind off my frustrations like taking care of a bunch of kids =___=. Christmas just around the corner...Hopefully my other wish can come true,and my recurring nightmare can end. Always the same dream, just getting clearer and clearer each time~
Really miss my dearest friend... used to be able to talk to you about anything and everything playfully, now its just a mournful atmosphere between us. want to close the distance again.Miss how it was for us before...sorry for all the crap i have said and done before...want the closeness back :/ know i've lotsa faults, no place to ask but stay,please? :'(
Listening to a lot of songs...especially this one too. I will always love you by whitney houston. I feel like i'm caught in a rut. Cant go forward, too late to go backwards. Confused , dont know what to do. Just wish sometimes people could tell me how they really feel about me... As direct as they can handle. Dont want to always guess what they are thinking...hate this guessing game already i swear. Its okay if its for joy ,fun and laughter, but not when heavier feelings are involved. Shall just take it as my karma~ bear with the consequence of the mistakes i've made. I want to stop always saying sorry, but no... Feels like if i stay, i'll only get in your way.Mayday Parade done a good job about teaching me alot of things...
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